30 Rock Pilot Causes Metaphysical Fears

I am not the same person I once was.

Before 4:13 today, I was a carefree young girl, head not exploded, years of joy ahead of me. That was before 4:13 when my roommate showed clips of the first pilot on 30 Rock. With Rachel Dratch. The lovely, hilarious Rachel Dratch.

That’s a bunch of lovely ladies together being funny. But what happened to Rachel Dratch?

I have a deep nausea in my heart, and stomach, and oddly my toes.

Many moons ago, when 30 Rock was simply a pilot, the character of Jenna Maroney played by Jane Krakowski was Jenna DeCarlo played by Rachel Dratch. Jenna is a great character and Jane is a super hilarious comedian.  I don’t know what the show would be like without her or if I would love it as much.

Furthermore,  the Jenna DeCarlo pilot made me ponder my morality and importance to the world. If it’s so easy for TV shows to replace a character and change the entire tv show, how can I be sure my identity is real? Or something like that.

Ladies, you have broken my heart.

I feel abandoned by Tina, Rachel, my 3rd grade teacher, everyone.

And then  I remember that I’m stressing about a comedy series and drastically need to reevaluate my life. But therapy takes up so much time.

That took a dark turn.

PS: Thanks Chloe, Tuesdays were made for self-analyzing and garbage day.